What's the use of everybody being suddenly so nice to me, just on my birthday? I mean, sure. It's nice to have those ' friends ' celebrate your birthday for you. To have a surprise party. I'm really grateful. I know I'll never be that good. But, if it's only that one day that you guys will treat me nicely, then I rather not see that facade. Sure, I know, I'm irritating and annoying. But that's just who I am. If I'm elected to be section leader, I'm sure it comes with some due respect. I think I'm coming short of it. You know, I'm still human. I still do what my mind thinks. If my mind thinks " Yah. I'm childish. " Then, yah. I'm childish. But, a section leader, is a responsibility. I have to do what I need to do. Yet it doesn't mean, I change for the post.  

I'm sorry for what happened just now. Just to let you know, I respect you a lot ok? As a very outstanding and prominent figure in my life. 

And you. How I hate your cold impression upon me. It's like a beautiful painting in the museum one could see yet not touch. I don't know what I've done to deserve this. You do not speak of my mistake and I'm expected to repent? There was once a upon a time where I felt your warmth. Literately. Maybe it's because of that? That crime? You don't even tell me how you are faring right now. How am I to know what not to do? Have you gotten back to him? Have you not? Tell me. Then I can change. You are always like a group 4 element. Subjected to many changes. Too many. I'm sorry. I've been hurt too many a time.