Today is so much more shitty then yesterday. We got back english first. Paper 2. Comprehension, 11. Summary, 12. Total nonsense. Failed by 3. Kinda scared to fail. Physics, 22 over 50. Careless mistakes, units wrong. All sorts of shit. Chemistry, 24. Haven't looked at the paper though. Chinese. Finally something to be happy for. 53. First pass in the year. Very very scared to look at the results. You see. I do comprehend how YOU feel... Yah. You. 
  Something happened during chinese too... Ai ling is angry with me. I feel damn miserable. I think it's because I told Germin that she likes someone... That's all. I've yet to find out what she heard. I'm really sorry. Untruths hurt. Like crazy. 
  And you... I'm sorry for hanging up last night. Total jerk. I mean, it was obvious you needed company... Yet I hung up... Sigh... I love you. 
  I'm currently typing all this in Chinese. Later, there is birthday celebrations for section... But they aren't even going. I render it pointless. They really aren't having any love or passion anymore. For band. For the instrument. Pretending to be sick. I'll never know if you guys are lying. But i'm telling you. It doesn't matter to me. Because its your conscious you will be facing when you can't play. Why can't you all just love this program and be responsible... I'm sorry I'm totally sucking at this. Being a section leader. I can't even uphold morale and emphasize on motivation. Damn.