Sunday, July 24, 2011
Today marks the end of another chapter in my life... I guess all I can say is, it was nice. I think you beg to differ. You are a nice girl. And I'm sorry for getting you in this shit.
Since the beginning, when you messaged me, I was immediately taken by you. And since then, you've led me through great times and bad. Heh... Well, I guess you've been rid of a problem eh... It's really hard not to think of you. You appear even in my dreams. But studying helps. Haha... Can say I'm studying for the wrong reasons. Whatever lah. I'm still studying aren't I?
Thanks for all the scoldings. I know you meant well. But in the end I'm too stupid and fun loving right? Self centered bastard who only cares about feeling good myself. Glad you saw me that way. Wished you believed what I said though... It's too late now.
I love you...
Sunday, July 10, 2011
Recently, in my life, there has been a huge controversy. Religion. No doubt, religion plays a huge part in our lives. And many a times, we have been forced to choose between that we love and that we believe. It is hard. But a decision must be made. Your religion, there since your birth. And love, that comes with maturing. Its really frustrating.
God, in the christian sense, has been appearing alot in my life lately. First with Gabriel's Bible. Then Mr Toh speaking about religion. Even in GLEE. I may not believe in him. To each, his own. God is in our hearts. I do not need to do christiany stuff to prove my loyalty to him.
I don't know... Right now i'm feeling really lost... Ok? I don't know what is right or wrong anymore... Telling me what I've ever known for my past 16 years is a lie? It sucks ok? You wouldn't know... Just give me time... If you still can't accept me for who i am, my religion and believes, then i'll be heartbroken... But i guess it will satisfy your religious needs... I love you... And of course i wish to spend the rest of my life with you... sigh...
